Single Parenthood: How Do You REALLY Feel?

 I’ve been a single mother for many years. Yet when asked, I define myself as a writer, a parent, a woman, a friend, an art advocate – and many other things. Make what you’d like of the sequence in that definition; but I claim my “single parenthood” fully.

I have great pride in what I’ve accomplished as a parent, and fond memories. But I would never say that I claim single parent status proudly, or fondly.

My single parenting status is a fact. It was not a choice.

In a recent online discussion, women and men commented on their identities as single moms and single dads, as well as the way remarriage or live-in partners change the equation, and change their sense of self.

Or not.

A statement

Along with feeling “whole” as a single parent, I also made the following statement in the discussion:

Despite 18 years of raising children essentially alone (and 2 more years to go), while I cherish the privilege of being a mom, I do not hold on to my single parenthood “fondly.” I love my children; we have many joys we’ve shared together.

But I would have preferred a marriage that worked, and to have been part of a couple raising a family. That has nothing to do with embracing fully who I am, the result of what I have lived. But it is a definite belief that if possible, sharing parenting in partnership is better than going it solo.

Choices, knowledge, preferences

When I was in my early 30s, I knew women who were opting for single parenthood via sperm donors.

I remember considering the same, briefly, as I was unattached, and dismissing it.

Not for me.

Five years later, I was married with two sons, whom I’ve raised largely on my own. I wouldn’t have missed this joy for anything.

But the truth is, I would’ve given a great deal to have shared it with a loving partner, in a working marriage.

How do you really feel?

In making that statement, I am acknowledging the profound costs – personal, professional, financial, physical, and emotional – involved in going it alone. My sons have paid a price as well, which I can only hope to have compensated for, at least in part. A cooperative ex-partner or extended family would’ve helped, which we didn’t have. But that’s not the point.

Every family has challenges.

I will add that I’ve known women (in particular) who genuinely prefer exercising all decision-making and control over child-rearing. I am not one of them. I wouldn’t have chosen that route.

So I’d like to know –

  • Did you, or would you, choose to be a single parent?
  • How do you feel – really – about parenting solo?
  • How do you feel about the statement I made (quoted) above?

 


© D A Wolf